Future of a suicide note

You don’t realise how I feel,
Locked inside this helpless skin,
Where I can’t comfort them,
Their forms bent and twisted behind
My blurred vision,
Maybe on the other side,
I wouldn’t feel so cold,
And so alone
Now that you left me.
I read your letter yesterday,
When you told me of how heavenly it was,
This other place,
Where you had always wanted to go,
It hasn’t stopped me missing you,
Now I know I’ll never see you again,
I know you were selfish to leave us,
But its what you’ve always wanted,
I’ll even miss how you made me cry,
Every time I walked in and you shouted
Just because I was there,
Then you would hug me
And I knew you secretly cared,
If only you were still here,
So I could tell you that
I still love you,
I wish you hadn’t gone,
Just listen hard enough to realise these truths,
Please.

You know we all care…